‘What you actually eat sugar?’ or ‘So what can you actually eat?’ or ‘Can you eat anything nice?’
I’ve got sensitivities, I’ve got intolerances and I love to eat foods that make me feel amazing while avoiding those that don’t. The truth is I have a big sweet tooth as well, I love to have treats and I love snacccckkks. If you follow me on instagram @chlohodgkinson you’d have seen me talk about these brands a lot:
Oh my god, so sticky and smooth and it’s even better than you can now get this nut butter in the form of a bite while is a wafer shell filled with the nut butter! My favourite has to be the cacao & hazelnut one!
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Dairy free chocolate you just HAVE to try.
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Healthy brownies & all the flavours to match. I love keeping one in my bag for emergencies but I’ve also been to known to add to yoghurt bowls or ice cream as well!
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Pip & Nut
Shock, it wouldn’t be a post about food without me mentioning these guys. They are my favourite nut butter company and I go through 1kg tub of coconut almond butter prob every month and a half! It’s so smooth and the soft coconut taste is incredible!
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I’ve actually in shock if I ever hear people not liking granola… the crunch is incredible. Add to yoghurt, to halo top, on it’s own ahhh so so good! I’ve listed below my ultimate favourites:
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All your favourite treats but just less of the shit stuff! They are honestly gorgeous – just try not to eat them all at once… or do…
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Loving Earth Chocolate
Oh my god, the dreammmmmmm. So smooth, so tasty, so Aussie. I feel in love with this brand way before visiting Australia and it’s definitely something I keep as a treat – I love when I head to London coming home with one for the train or having a night in with films and having some then!
Koko Dairy Free
This is my go-to most evenings after dinner – I tend to have this with frozen berries and granola & bran on top. It’s so good and the coconut flavouring comes through really nicely with the berries. This is perfect if you’re intolerant like me to dairy!
Halo Top Ice Cream
I tend to keep this as a real real treat because sometimes the artificial sweeteners can play havoc with me but the coconut one is defo my fave!
When I tell you that every time I wake up in the morning full of energy I’m genuinely shocked and stand there asking myself ‘Am I sure?!’ – the answer for the past month is yes. Yes Im sure. I feel bloody fantastic, I am repelling against negativity and find how I react to different situations is better.
I feel grounded & passionate, happy & light and even when I get angry or feel down the processing of this is completley different to how I did before.
Bad news for you light sleeps but this has been a huge huge huge help. Sleep is my #1 and with my body clock getting me up early it means that I need to make sure I hit the sack early too. I’m not a big TV watcher so this is easier for me but I now tend to climb into bed about 8:30pm and read for an hour, this normally sends me really sleepy and I switch lights out around 9:30pm. I now normally sleep all the way through but I do notice massively now if I eat too late or eat something that is high in sugar for example then my sleep is really disrupted. A top tip for getting to sleep is count your breathes to 10, then start from 1 again… I normally don’t even remember reaching 3 rounds of 10!
I’m putting a little section in here to talk about caffeine because it sits along side both prioritising sleep & decreasing my stress. I’ve actually decided to get rid of caffeine with especially focusing on coffee. You see im quite sensitive thanks to my couple of years of under eating and over excising and I’m extremely sensitive to stress.
Coffee increases your cortisol (stress) levels and encourages adrenaline which can put your body in a big stressed state which in previous generations would only be put in if in danger by a being eaten or a tribe attacking. A high stressed body exhausts you and drains you and really ruins your sleep. I found myself grinding my teeth in the night as well as waking up about 4/5 times and reliant on coffee just to keep me going.
This deserves a whole blog post by itself but really focusing on decreasing my stress has allowed me to stop worrying, be present and be happy. Instead of stress I focus on gratitude by saying 3 things im grateful for each day. As well as giving up caffeine which has been the biggy here I’ve also started focusing on my breathing and taking up yoga while resting more.
Embraced my Spiritual side
This one isn’t for everyone & again I think will be the start of a series as there is so much I want to talk about in this section. But honestly, embracing my spirituality and seeing the purpose of life in a bigger picture has been amazing for my happiness and energy. The belief that we are more than just blobs walking around destroying where we live and that there is a higher level of life is incredible. It’s provided me with insights and knowledge about myself and others I never would have thought of, it has guided me to incredible opportunities and given me experiences that simply felt out of this world…. Omg I sound like a right nutter hahaha.
We are constantly bothered about how we look to others, pleasing others and just go go go. We often to forget to check in with ourselves – hey that comment someone made? How did you actually feel about that? … or just stopping, breathing and acknowledging yourself is really powerful. I have spent time analysing my past, my actions and my goals – why I acted in a certain way and also the person who I want to be in life. The more you connect with yourself, the more you listen to yourself and your body which means more energy and happiness.
Sounds silly but we genuinely dont do enough of this. We rush around breathing fast in competition with who is the busiest. You know what? Now I buzz if im the most chilled. I’ve started breathing through my stomach and with my nose not my mouth. This signals to the body that your safe which in turn relaxes you, helps you think, slows you down for a second to connect with yourself… and if you’re in bed, helps you fall asleep.
I really hope these tips can help you & I’d love to know what you guys do for happiness and energy? Please comment below as im desperate to try new ways!
Here are some of my go too products for happiness & energy:
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Going vegan? Or reducing dairy? Or a little sensitive like me with an intolerance? I have news for you … YOU DONT HAVE TO GIVE UP CHOCOALTE. *Cheeeeeeerrrssss*
I’ve put together my favourite chocolate bars for you guys to enjoy & share with me … if you like obv. Tag me in your posts if you try them for the first time & give them a personal rating too!
Ombar / 8/10
If different flavours are up your street then this brand is for you. Made in the UK & 9 flavours to choose from. My Fave? Mandarin & coco mylk.
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Raw Halo 8/10
Organic & only a little added sweetness this chocolate is incredibleeee. I love the high end feel to the branding which means it makes a great gift too – it’s a regular from me! My Fave? The salted caramel closely followed by the crispy one too … im salivating thinking about it!
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Doisy & Dam / 7/10
While their chocolate is lush, you haven’t tasted something quite like the snaps. Im feeling like they are very similar to the malteasers you get in Celebrations – get your hands on them and try not to finish the whole bag in one go…. I didn’t manage it
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Hotel Chocolat / 5/10
The King of the Highstreet in my eyes. If there is one chocolate that im more than happy to risk a dodgy tummy for it will always be these guys. BUT not only that, these guys offer such a wicked vegan range now – just hope you like dark chocolate.
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Booja Booja / 7/10
On the more ‘high end’ Priceline but so is the flavour soooo? These are such a good little present & rich and full of flavour. The ice cream is the bomb too by the way.
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Loving Earth / 10/10
ALLLLL HAIL THE LORDS. Honestly, my favourite chocolate in the whole world. I would choose this over cadburys or any other any day of the week. If anyone wants to buy me a present… this’ll do nicely ta x
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What are is your fave vegan treat?
Dear Body, im sorry.
It’s been a few years now, a few years since we’ve been out of the darkest bits… but really about 11 months since I made the decision that enough was enough and you deserved to be put first. 11 months now since I decided that you mattered more than what society told my mind you should be. 11 months now since I started to take back control. 11 months since I guess you can say you’ve been allowed to be the best you. To live, to laugh and to love. But this is the first time I’m saying the words I should have said a while a go… and that’s that I’m sorry. Truly, deeply sorry.
I’m sorry for the times that I thought the less I ate the more weight I lost and the better you’d be. I know now that just makes you just go into survival and starvation mode where you will stop all unnecessary cell growth in a bid to keep me alive. I’m sorry that in my constant restricting of calories that you had no choice but to work even harder to keep me alive rather than give me the body I so desperately wished I had when I looked in the mirror. I’m sorry for all the diets that caused me to restrict you from the nutrients you need – You know, the no fat, no sugar, no carbs.. that cabbage soup one when i was 17?
Remember throughout my 1st year at uni and my time at uni?
I had you on 3 eggs, chicken and a handful of spinach.. you were allowed 10 raisins and 10 almonds before the gym and chicken and veg for dinner. Endless amounts of black coffee, you were on 4/5 Americanos and you were allowed 2 naps a day. Only now do I know that the coffee and the naps were because you had no energy to keep me moving. You did everything you could to stop me moving and I did everything I could to keep you going.
I forced you to move over 10,000 steps a day and if I didn’t I would drag you outside come rain or shine until you did. I forced you to never miss a gym session no matter how busy, how ill or how inconvenient for my friends or family. I would force you to miss time with family to make you run off those calories you ate, miss meals out with friends unless you could have chicken and veg and miss out on delicious deserts you were so badly craving in a bid to get abs. But the abs never came did they? Because you didn’t even have enough energy to keep me awake for the whole day, let alone build muscle.
I’m sorry for the time I gave you so much protein in a bid ‘to gain muscle’ through eggs every day, protein shakes, lots of low fat dairy and lots of meat. I’m sorry that you now cant process dairy and you have difficulty digesting foods now. I’m sorry you’re now so sensitive and the gut is now easily irritated because I was so convinced that fats and carbs were bad.
I’m sorry that the lack of carbs and fats meant you couldn’t function to give me my period, to keep my mood ok and my hormones balanced. I’m sorry you had to run on adrenaline and caffeine just to keep going.
I’m sorry that I blamed you every time I looked in the mirror that you weren’t the way I wanted you to look. The dull skin, hair falling out and brittle nails, I blamed you for not giving me what I wanted to see when I looked in the mirror – only now do I realise the lack of micronutrients from fruit and veg caused this, the lack of calories caused this and the lack of carbs for energy and fats for hormones caused this. I’m sorry that when I got so sick of not seeing what I wanted I would force you to consume endless amounts of chocolate and alcohol on a binge and then moan when I took ages to recover simple because you struggled to process the sudden binge.
I’m sorry for the lack of rest, for forcing you to complete high intensity workouts putting you under more stress. I’m sorry for focusing on calorie burn rather than celebrating your ability to move or your strength. I think cortisol, the stress hormone was most present leading you to not being able to switch off. I’m sorry that because of this waking up 3/4 times in the night was normal, jumping out of bed at 5am was normal pumped, wired and ready to go on adrenaline was normal, that the grinding of teeth was normal and the inability to switch off the mind was normal.
I’m sorry for the aches and pains you had to try get me to slow down and I’m sorry for ignoring them. I’m sorry for never stretching and looking after the muscles. I’m sorry for telling you if you weren’t sweating or out of breathe to do it again and for only being fueled by caffeine to complete such massive workouts.
I’m sorry that because of the lack of fuel you were always cold, right down to the bones. No amount of jumpers helped did it? Every day you were colder than the day before, every day you were fed less and if you went to bed growling at me with hunger then that was an accomplishment.
I’m sorry to you for making these choices and I’m sorry to my mind for making for the thoughts I had. I’m sorry to my mind and body for allowing myself to follow a stream of diet pages, promoting ways to eat less and move more. I’m sorry for the ruthless quotes saved on my phone, the endless ‘fitspos’ saved as my screen saver and the endless comparing to everyone on social media. I’m sorry for never letting you rest or switch off from the thoughts of food and calories. For constantly forcing you to think where and when your next bit of food will be, how you will enjoy something sweet without the calories and forcing you to look at pictures of food but never enjoying them. I’m sorry for every time I looked in the mirror the words I used to call you and I’m sorry for making you pretend everything was ok to everyone that loved you.
I’m sorry that it’s only now that I’m ready to say sorry and that while I can look back at my uni years and notice all the things that I did to you. I want you to know that now I am focusing on energy – no energy? That’s fine, lets rest you, feed you or hydrate you.
I want you to know that the thoughts and how I feel are my main priority – feeling low in self confidence? Remember what we’ve achieved and been through so far and my purpose in this life.
Comparing bodies with other girls? I promise to check I’m following only positive people on social media, to remember everyone is beautiful and accept you for you.
What about when it comes to fitness? I want to celebrate you, push you to become better at things and challenge you – but never completely exhaust you that you have to stop my period again.
Nutrition? I promise to listen you about what you need. Need carbs, sure hun. Extra calories because you’ve practicing #ProjectBecomeGoodAtShit? Absolutely. Want that desert? If it’s got dairy in we still need to be careful but if it’s without and you really want it, no worries.
That bottle of wine? Enjoy it and I’ll just give you some extra gut health support because although you might not accept it in every way… I know now that memories mean more than inches. That you mean more than the mirror. That your strength means more than the abs. That your thoughts mean more that your clothing size and that you mean more to me than what society tells us to be through that shitty diet culture that’s rammed down our throat every single damn day.
Dear body, I’m truly sorry and I promise to use you and your shitty experience to make a change to young girls and females. I promise to show the world how you are now you have the energy and I promise to use my experiences on how I used to treat you to create a bigger awareness of how the ‘healthy one’ might need a little help and guidance. That the one into fitness may be fighting a battle no one knows about and why fitspo might not be that inspiring after all.
Let’s make a change but this time together, not against each other.
Don’t forget to come say on Instagram, im currently on #ProjectBecomeGoodAtShit & #ProjectHealthyAdventurer – @chlohodgkinson
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I got my period back and I kind of wasn’t expecting what else could change/happen around me… so naturally I’d thought I’d share…
- I’ve fallen truly madly deeply in love with dogs. Im obsessed. I get the urge to stroke them constantly and my heart hurts a little and fills like it gets bigger everytime I see one. Im not sure if this is some kind of fertility sign/ broodiness thing happening maybe? Does anyone know? – but anyway don’t panic mum, at least it’s not kids ey!
- I’ve got hair on my arms like the tops of arms and my hair is growing rapid… turns out when you suffer from amenrohea your hormones are everywhere and can stop hair production.
- Nail Growth – It can also stop nail production… so you guessed it, my nails are growing like made!
- My Libido is back (omg I cringed writing that hahaha soz mum)
- I’ve developed hormonal acne. Annoyingly I now get spots around my chin and jaw line. If you face map it (See here) this is due to hormones. I’m going to go see someone to see if I can manage this.
- I worry less. Not having a period was a massive worry for me, so I kinda obsessed over it… me? Obsess?! Neeeeever lol…. Since having it back, It’s one less thing to worry about!
- I’m more aware of my body than ever and my cycle. I researched loads into the reproductive system and out cycles and started to become so in tune with my body and what it means when it does certain things.
- I feel more female. It sounds weird, but I feel more womanly & girlie if you like. I can’t really describe the feeling but I just feel more feminine… hmm.
And that’s that… I’ll update you if anything else happens but im really interested in seeing if you notice any differences to your body & feelings around your cycle? Let me know below!
Here to more flowing months hahaha ew.
So if you don’t know by now I’m working incredibly hard on 2 projects… #ProjectBecomeGoodAtShit and #ProjectHealthyAdventurer and I guess you could argue that the following hits both of these projects kinda well.
Last Thursday I was invited to head down to Beyond Escapes near Totnes to experience the BE Relaxed package at their BE You Spa and Gym. Now, they weren’t lying when they call it relax – having been back in the UK for less than 48hrs and jet lag hitting me hard, this kind of evening was exactly what I needed. I’m attempting to become more relaxed (#ProjectBecomeGoodAtShit) and I’m wanting to do as much exploring as possible (#ProjectHealthyAdventurer.)
We were welcomed by a stunning old building next to a beautiful modern spa, both complimenting each other and the countryside setting. We were taken down to the spa and greeted with robes, slippers and that clean, fresh spa smell – yano the type that relaxes you just by breathing?
I wanted to experience everything at Beyond Escapes, so much to mum’s disappointment I took her, myself and my new Daisy & Co. outfit into their gym that looked out across the incredible views of the countryside and onto the sea. The gym was cosy and had everything you needed for a good circuit workout. A quick sweat and mum and I were both ready to chill.. I mean I do have jet lag after all.
We were so lucky with the gorg autumn weather because we slipped into the hydropool. Did you know that these types of pools help reduce muscle pain and tightness, and help relieve stress while boosting the immune system?
Anyway…. we chatted about my trip to Australia and my future plans. If you know me, I’m someone that loves to be working on something, heading towards something and I love to be focused. So we chatted and laughed until mum decided it was time to steam and sauna.
The sauna and steam rooms has my skin in a little tizz of excitement. Australia and the flights made me have really bad blocked pores, especially hormonal ones so a good 10 mins each and we were hot, sweaty and very smug about how nice this will make our skin. I’m going to try make steam and saunas a more regular thing. 6pm came and we headed upstairs for our Lava Shells Relax Massage and sweet Jesus, I’m 90% sure mum and I got put into a coma.
Now, I´m quite the serial massage receiver (if that’s even a thing) and I’ve been through my fair share of being beaten up, tickled and a few have actually been OK – much to the girls’ amusement when we were chatting after the massage. These hot shells were used across my body sending me into deep relaxation and my mum snoring… although she will prob deny this. The girls went on to explain how the shells promote circulation and the importance of getting enough water because it flushes out toxins – exactly what I needed post flight.
The package also came with £10 off any Elemis product, I purchased the lavender toner – a spray that is good for hydrating the skin and great for breakouts too. Along with the steam room this brought out all of my blocked pores and my skin is clearing up amazingly. It feels so nice on my skin and that lavender smell is unreal.
Heading back to the gorgeous changing rooms we went upstairs for dinner in the BE Tempted Restaurant. It was quiet and extremely personal, the staff were genuinely lush and the salmon dinner I had? Even better. With this package you get a 2 course meal and as I´m more of a starter and main girl, I went for the calamari and salmon… I was so so full but they couldn’t let us leave until we had at least tried the brownie. I was like huh? As they brought out the sample size… as I took a bite I knew exactly what they meant, it was absolutely gorgeous and I wish I was joking but I think next time I go I´m going to have to pay the extra and attempt all 3 courses…. Man vs food coming up. They change their menus seasonally and often have specials too, like the World Vegan Day menu which will be available from 1st– 7thNovember.
Like I said I was lucky enough to be invited to this experience but this was genuinely one of the best spa experiences I ever had and genuinely can´t wait to head back. I’m really interested in trying their other packages, like the morning or afternoon one… You can see what they have on offer here.
They currently have some Mani-Mondays offers and also their Friday Facial which you can see more of here too.
If you want to see more about my evening with Beyond Escapes I’ve also vlogged it which you can see here…
Lots of love
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I guess it’s that time again. I’m on a long haul flight home after my second most incredible trip this year.
I have to say I think this trip may have taken the title for best trip I’ve ever had which after Thailand I didn’t think was going to happen – although I will argue that each trip was the best for very different reasons. Thailand, I was able to put lots to be bed and find out who I was, while this trip I was able to grow even more and work out even deeper who I was.
On every trip I go deep into my thoughts and my visions because often at home I struggle to find the time too.
I often spend a lot of time focused on my future, where I want to be and where I want to go/what’s next for me – I love doing this as it really motivates me for when I’m home. I originally came out to Aus to explore the health and fitness industry and let me tell you – I very much did that! I’ve eaten incredible food, been on amazing runs and completely fallen in love with the place & the Aussie lifestyle… I now have some really exciting ideas in mind of what I want to achieve now and what parts of their amazing lifestyle I want to bring back with me. Examples: more plant based eating, exercising outside, early mornings.
Coming out to Australia made me realise that at the start of summer I was basically living this lifestyle so it’s inspired me to get back to that kind of life… I’m not that much of a party girl, don’t get me wrong when I party – I can… but I’m really sensitive and it takes a lot for me to recover. It effects me in more ways than one & It’s not really something I want to have in my life.
I’ve learnt a few things this trip, things like I ACTUALLY AM GOOD WITH DIRECTIONS! And I’m really good at taking control when I need too.
In the past I’ve been told I’ve been awful with directions and I’m ‘ditsy’ and although the ditsy part may be true in some aspects I’ve actually really surprised myself that my sense of direction was sick (Ask Kate if you don’t believe me)… btw this goes for driving too if any of my family are reading this! I’ve been told that I’m quite a good driver actually! but this has nothing to do with Australia because this dosey cow left her driving licence at home – did I mention I’m not actually ditsy? haaaa.
I’ve learnt I’m actually so up for an adventure and I’m a bit of a Dora the Explorer. I want to explore culture and I have a sense of urgency to make sure I see everything in the short amount of time I was there. I love to explore and was researching every place we went too about what we needed to see. I was conscious of the fact that we were only there for a few days so I just had to make sure I saw everything – partly because everyone we met told us 3 weeks wasn’t long enough… WELL WE SHOWED THEM!… btw did I mention I’m not competitive?
ok… yeah I’m totally competitive. I wanted to do every walk and every run I went on I wanted to do it faster than the day before. I had so much get up and go that I definitely didn’t stop even when my body told me too. This is something I’ve always struggled with, I can often tune out of my body and just keep going and although this is sometimes beneficial I learnt that my energy levels don’t gradually decrease when I’m not listening to me body, they jump… I’m really really good and then bam I’m dead.
Australia found my love for moving my body and eating nourishing foods without the need for calorie counting, calorie burning or focus around protein. I fell back in love with the fresh air runs and how good fresh food makes me feel.
I read 3 (on my 4th) amazing books and they took me to some dark places. It made me realise that I had suffered from a potential eating disorder and that my obsession with exercise was definitely worse that I first thought. I read ‘Body Positive Power’ by Megan Crabbe and Mel wells’ book The Goddess Revolution and it really opened my eyes to the culture I had been swamped with for the past few years. That culture being diet culture. I want to save the details for a few more posts but one big thing I’ve done this trip is make the decision to step away from 1-2-1 personal training at Winners.
I want to be able to help as many people as possible to feel the energy and the feel good feelings I get when I move my body and eat well. I want people to have a happy mindset that they are able to go and live their life with the greatest fulfilment.
That they are able to use their strong body and healthy insides to achieve everything they want to achieve. I realised it was my time to step away from helping people change their bodies for aesthetics. It doesn’t sit right with me people coming to see me to lose a couple inches because ‘that’s when they will love themselves’.
Self love comes from the inside, people are so much more than how they look and I felt I was contributing to the diet culture that ruined my mental health and gave me obsessions that I’ve had to work so hard to get out of.
It definitely doesn’t mean I’m turning my back on the industry – defo defo not! I’ve been working on a few things over the past few months and this has just given me the motivation I needed to really push through for those ideas to happen. I want to reach more of you and help more females find empowerment and love for having a healthy and strong body. I want young girls to grow up realising their worth and their abilities when they are strong and healthy – both body and mind. So please bare with me, but I am currently working n creating.
#ProjectBecomeGoodAtShit will definitely come back now I’m home – to me that’s why I move my body, I want to become good at stuff instead of chasing that ideal body I did for so many years when I was younger.
#ProjectHealthyAdventurer, my latest project is going to be in full swing with more things booked in and more opportunities coming my way – the best place to see this is probably my instagram @chlohodgkinson … but I might use it as an opportunity to get back vlogging on youtube if enough people are interested.
A big thing for me this trip was my connection to the universe. This may freak some people out so if you’re not into spirituality maybe skip this bit? haha.
I’ve felt a real connection with who I am and a real guidance on what I’m meant to be doing in this world. I realised I’m a lot more hippie and spiritual than I first thought and I love it! I saw Treena in Sydney- the lady I sat next to on my flight home from Thailand. A psychic and life coach who gave me a reading and guidance on my life. I feel I have a bit of a calling to make a change to society when it comes to health and fitness and just to freak you all out – I now take a gypsy juice every morning and every evening – basically flower essences that will help me. – did I mention I’m a proper hippie nutter? haaalp.
Australia has also made me realise that I’m a worrier. If everything is going well, I’ll try to find something that isn’t and will focus my energy on that. Treena has helped me see different perceptions on this and this is something I really want to focus on.
Australia made me realise I love affection but often struggle to give it, I’ve realised I’m a big kid that loves any type of game and I also like things to be black and white. I’m not good when there isn’t a definite answer. I’m not a big fan of the grey areas in life which often means I’m an all or nothing person … must keep working on that ‘balance’ shit.
Australia made me realise a complete different perspective on previous experiences. Ones that I had once viewed as completely negative I no longer did. This isn’t the platform to share that as it’s a bit too personal but this hit hard. You know when you see something completely differently & that’s really really hard to deal with – I try not to be a ‘what if’ person, but I have to be honest I’ve thought that a lot this trip.
I learnt I’m a bit of a people pleaser and am often happy to forget about myself and my own likes & dislikes to keep others happy – as much as I love to give, I’m going home ready to stay align with my true self.
I’ve learnt I’m no longer scared of snakes, reptiles, the sea or storms. I learnt that finding vegan places to eat even in Aus is bloody hard. I learnt that walking 25000+steps hurts my hips. I learnt that yoga is the answer to most things. But most of all I learnt that you can be complete opposites to someone yet have the deepest connection too.
Kate, If you read this, thank you. Thank you for the very very best trip and one I will never forget. Thank you for the matching tattoo and thank you for being so understanding when I need some alone time (I recharge by myself, I’m what I would describe as a extroverted introvert). Thank you for opening my eyes to vegan food and for answering all my questions when I’ve challenged you about it. Thank you for being the polar opposite to me and open my eyes to whole a new different perception. Thank you for listening to my stories about mindset and most of all thank you for accepting a spot of spirituality. Thank you for skipping through Sydney CBD when I asked you too, for the deep chats… oh and for hugging that tree when I told you too. Thanks for the laughs, the energy dips and the energy rises, the good food and the adventures but most of all, thanks for being you.
Another trip down, a lot learnt & even more memories created- now for the home stretch and here’s what I’ve got planned:
- Fit will go live!
- Focus on myself, my goals and my happiness
- Yoga will become a weekly thing
- Reading will become a daily thing
- I’ll get back running
- I’ll work on keep my energy levels high
- I’ll accept emotions rather than suppress them
- I’ll come off my phone when I’m with my family and friends
- More adventures to come & I’ll treasure every moment.
Australia you were an absolute blast – thank you, thank you, thank you. Until next time xxxx
I’m in the process of writing the healthy guide to Australia so bare with me.
*My aim is to revisit this in a few months to reflect on this – Feb 2019.
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You ever look at society and notice how obsessed we are at changing our bodies? Being stressed? Being busy? Working towards something? Ever noticed how society tells us we need to change ourselves?
If you’re a brit you might notice how awful we are at taking compliments or praising ourselves. We are surrounded and shaped by society and cultural norms.
Sometimes this Is a sensible thing, cultural and social norms are put in place to tame our animal instincts, Yano the sort that make us act like ‘wild animals’ which we basically are at the end of the day. So I guess that’s a good thing, like stopping us having sex in the middle of streets or getting run over by cars if we don’t wait for the green man.
I get those rules right, but I don’t get the social norms that tell us we can’t be truly happy with ourselves and who we are.
You ever seen someone oozing confidence and heard someone say they are arrogant?
Or praise themselves and be called stuck up?
Or get a compliment, accept it and someone thinks they are up their own arse?
Or seeing someone having fun when newly single instead of crying into a tub of Ben and Jerry’s?
I don’t know about you but im really really bored with us not being allowed to be OK.
Not allowed to be happy in ourselves because diet culture is swamping us, not allowed to be happy because ‘life is hard and then you die’, not allowed to move our bodies ‘just because’ or eat something ‘just because’, not allowed to love what we do because you ‘work to pay the bills’, not allowed to make our own decisions because society isn’t ready for that yet.
We spend our whole lives making decisions but we don’t often realise some decisions are being made for us by society, trends or big companies that earn the big bucks.
Think about it, everything we do is a decision…It’s always a yes or no and if it’s a maybe then that is a no until you say yes.
Hungry? Yes? You eat. Do you want to go to the cinema? yes, so you go. You’re tired, do you sleep? Yes or no.
So if we spend our whole time making decisions why don’t we make the decision to be happy and comfortable in every decision we make?
That goes for emotions by the way, we decide how we feel. We can decide how angry we get when someone does us wrong, we can decide how sad we get when something comes to an end and we can decide what makes us excited or scared.
Unfortunately, the decisions aren’t as black and white as choosing because we are swamped with social normals and cultures telling us what we should choose to feel and often without us even knowing it.
Who chooses to hate their body? You didn’t consciously choose that, unfortunately diet culture taught us to do that and our subconscious or unconscious mind chose to take it in.
You see, we aren’t always conscious of the decisions we make and that’s why I want to make a change to allow us to make a deeper connection with ourselves and our minds and love ourselves and get to know ourselves so we can take back some confidence and control.
I want you to know that it’s ok to think you look bloody fabulous.
I want you to know that it’s ok to love your job, it’s ok to not be busy and it’s ok to eat that cake.
I want you to know that it’s ok to love what you love and dislike what you dislike but I urge you to make sure that it’s coming from your heart and not from a current trend.
I want you to know that it’s ok to know what’s good for you and express that.
I want you to know that it’s ok to do something different to the rest of those around you – in fact that’s brilliant, that’s what makes humans so amazing – the diversity amongst us.
I want you to know it’s ok to feel sad and to know when you need some extra help and support.
I want you to know it’s ok to do things that make you happy and avoid what makes you feel sad.
I want you to know it’s ok to just do you.
I want you to know that it’s ok to be Ok with who you are and celebrate that.
I urge you to next time someone or something makes you feel in a way that you can’t express yourself or be the true you to sit back and to remember how we make decisions. If someone has upset you, that’s fine… allow yourself to be upset but make the decision on how long for and to what extent.
If you find yourself comparing your life to the instagram famous girls and it’s making you question your body and your happiness… accept the emotion, remember we can make a choice, remember we can make the decision to avoid that feeling and then decide how you will avoid that, can you unfollow them in a way to create more happiness for yourself?
I urge us all to start making the decision to make our own decisions.
Here’s to expressing ourselves, all of our individual weirdness, all of our different shaped bodies and all of our different interests and being absolutely ok with it.
The contraceptive pill, or in fact any contraception can be used for a variety of reasons. The main one obviously being contraception but many go on it to regulate periods, sort hormonal acne, mood swings, PMS etc etc.
I was on it primarily for contraception and changed my pill a few times in to sort my moods (only to find out later that the pill had nothing to do with this ‘down-ness’). When I came off the pill and I started waiting for my period… and waiting… and waiting some more. It inspired me to research into why it was taking so long, I spent my evenings knee deep in websites all about periods and contraceptive pills and while it’s normal for you body to take a while to regulate it should normally regulate by 3 months. Mine didn’t.
I came across hypothalamic amenorrhea. A condition where your period stops due to an issue involving the hypothalamus. Basically, it’s where your periods stop due to your hormone levels… leading to even deeper research about the female hormones – we are bloody more complicated than men even claim we are btw.
I started looking at how your hormones can become imbalanced and therefore lead to a lack of period… everything I list in this blog post here… are big causes of imbalanced hormones.
I then started to look at the symptoms of hypothalamic Amenorrhea….
- Low libido – yep.
- Feeling cold often – cor, yessss.. 5 jumps & a scarf.
- Depression and anxiety – Not so much depression, but was down and v.anxious
- Difficulty sleeping – 2pm, 3pm, 4pm wees.
- Increased hunger – I snacked constantly.
- Low energy – I napped every day before my evening clients.
What scared me the most reading this was finding out that when you’re on the pill, you don’t actually have a period – you have a fake period. Basically when you have a break from your pills your body has a period, this doesn’t mean your body can still have a period by itself. This is also why doctors will put you on the pill ‘to bring back your period’, if you’re suffering from amenorrhea, research really does support to stay off and look at your lifestyle instead.
When reflecting, I had all of the above symptoms for about 2/3 years finally giving them all a boot around May this year. I can now say I don’t suffer from any of the above unless i’ve had a heavy weekend on the Vodka (alcohol anxiousness & rubbish sleep / energy … but all my own fault) No longer is this day in, day out.
I’ll be writing in my next blog post exactly how I got my period back and balanced my hormones again!